The beginning of a blog!!!

Ok, so bear with me. I am not the best writer in the world. In fact my typing skills are horrible and almost non-existent! I probably haven't wrote anything other than in my myspace or facebook since highschool. One of the reason I have decided to start this thing is because i wanted a way to look back at the times that I might have forgotten, or at the moment might not seem to matter. I've realized these past couple years how fast life as seemed to past me by. All the moments that have been lost in the back of my memory. Almost so hard to remember.
Waking up this morning and putting my son into the bath i realized he had his 1st tooth coming through. Tomorrow he will be 9 months and for the most part they have flown by! Yes, we had our brief moments when we thought the days would drag on night after night with no sleep and a crying baby all night because of his acid reflux. I remember feeling like i was living in a daze from being sleep deprived. Wishing i was the one who was working so i could go to sleep at night because i had to get up in the morning. I remember sitting there crying rocking him wondering why we thought we were ready for this. But now I realize your never going to be ready for what comes with having a baby. You learn that all the wonderful moments make up for any bad ones you might have, and the good far out weight the bad. He's the most wonderful thing that has happened in my life other than my husband. It was true that seeing him as a dad as made me fall in love with my husband in a whole new way. I always knew he was going to be a great dad and that's one of the many reasons I feel in love with him. Ever since our son was born I've had this need to feel like i need to do everything i can to make sure hes happy, health, and safe growing up. I felt like there was no way to protect him from this country that's become so crazy. In a way I feel like I'm a failure if I subject him to this horrible culture we are living in. Since he's been born I've really changed my outlook on the world. Everyones striving to be these perfect images we see in magazines. Everythings labels and materialist things. Family is almost 2nd to these things we feel the need to have and buy. These big houses that we don't have to even see our family in our home except maybe a brief passing. Were so worried about other people thinking we are as good if not better than them. I wish people put that much effort into their family's. We've decided to consider moving to Ireland where my family is from. We just want a simpler life where our children our safe to play outside without fear of some child predator abducting them or them feeling like their never good enough. Not to mention the drug problem in this country. I've never been so scared in my life as I have been having to think of all the awful bad things that could happen to your child nowadays. I fell into the whole labels, brands, and monitary things that i thought made a person up until this year. Its the first time I've been able to see past these stupid wasteless things i've spent my hard earned money on. I'm putting everthing i have into chaning my ways so my children dont grow up feeling like i did. I think having a child at 23 made me realize something i might have spent the nest 10 years missing out on. Of course i don't feel like anyone should have a child until they are in a secure loving relationship and they have talked about what their views are on raising kids and marriage. We'll my sons waking up from his nap. Time to be with him.